My husband and I have went through some really hard times over the years until one day I packed up the kids and left. He professed his undying love and begged me to stay, agreed to counseling etc. it had been better but I just don’t want to have sex with him because he sucks. Like really sucks. It’s always super quick, no passion, no emotion, and I’m usually doing all the work. He likes to get drunk beforehand sometimes to make it last longer but there’s so many reasons why that’s unhealthy. He’s tried sex pills before and it’s still the same result.

Even if he did last longer I wouldn’t want it because we just aren’t sexually compatible. I’m very sexual and am aware that I’m good in the bedroom but I’m tired of wasting my talents on the undeserving. Yesterday he initiated sex by trying to pull my hand down his pants and I just yanked away and snapped because man ur too old to be so icky and gross. He also never goes down on me but expects me to everytime. It’s been ten years of this and these past few months have really shown how sick of it I am but not even looking his way when it comes to that. Now he’s back where we were attitude wise which made me leave in the first place.

However I still want to have sex. I wake up and want it everyday. Even if I didn’t get mine I would want it and I guess that’s how we lasted this long but I can’t do it anymore. I get asked out a lot and it’s very tempting to just cheat and get it over with just to feel desired and sexually pleased for once. The mind screw of being with someone who barely hugs or touches u, to having to block someone begging to only go down on u..I have so many sex toys that it’s a little embarrassing but it’s what I’ve had to do to get any real pleasure.