So I’m an idiot… so last night we were meant to be intimate but of course he fell asleep on the couch. I’ve been asking nicely for months… four months to be exact since that last time we had sex. I try not to push it or be annoying, I wait till it’s been a month then I ask politely if we can try to make love on the weekend, then I wait another 2 weeks and ask again… this goes on and on and on.

Well… tonight I really thought it was going to happen! Guys I thought I was going to get what I desperately needed HAHA dreaming. I was laying in bed and every move I made he would sigh, huff and puff. Like I was annoying him by being there. I tried talking to him I was getting short replies and then I just started to quite cry in hopes he would try and make an effort for once. We lay there in silence until I he said “well I’m not going to lay here for another half an hour are we doing this or I’m Going to sleep” then “jokingly” said “either we root or we don’t” and laughed. I just continued to cry and said “all good” and rolled over.

I just couldn’t be the one to try this time, I just want to feel loved and sexy and wanted. I felt like I was making him do something he didn’t want to do and that is SOOOO unsexy in-fact it feels disgusting. Every few months I find myself here crying and typing and it makes me feel better. DO NOT DM ME PLEASE 🙏🏽