My wife of 14 years had an affair with a guy after I was unable to have sex for 8 months due to a medical issue on my end. I know I shouldn’t be shocked that she sought out a way to fill the void that I’m now feeling as the tables have turned.

I found out she sent this guy tons of sexy nude masturbation videos and photos and she’s never sent me anything remotely close over the 14 years. This was tough to see and hear about because I would have been so excited to see these coming from her to me.

I literally have been begging for sex since I’ve been able and while she has done it for me out of guilt it’s very hard to fuck someone that’s not into you. It’s painful. She wanted this guy so bad and was all into him but yet with me her husband that does so much for our family including our kids she isn’t into me like that anymore. She won’t sext me or send me photos and videos like that.

It just hurts and if you’re riding out a similar storm I know it’s rough. I just hope the pain leaves us alone eventually and the tides turn in our favor. I want to fix things with her and we are trying but it doesn’t make this any easier. Part of me wants to just leave knowing she’ll never want me the way she wanted her AP. But the other part loves her and loves our life together with our kids and I find her sexy and attractive and I can’t imagine life without her.

My Christmas was definitely ruined and it was so hard to put on a happy face for our kids…as I sit here crying making this post I just want the sun to come out and fhe roaring waves to stop. I need to feel desired sexually, and wanted.