So here we are I just saw my calendar and the last time we/I had sex was on October 13th. Man time goes fast when you stop expecting something from your partner…

Last time you gave me the usual duty sex were like always penetration is difficult giving me your back and only having your butt to be seen, you know I hate that position but you always say that you feel better like that... Like always here I am rubbing your clit hoping to cum.

You didn't need to say "just do it quickly" because of how you undressed and quickly turned around with no kisses or foreplay and you still wonder why I can last for so long…

I hoped that after the last 3 months of no sex you'll change and be more "active" in bed but I was wrong and mainly stupid. I even don't count this as "sex" so it has been more than 4 months without sex, my record and it's beaten as everyday goes by.

I promised myself to never initiate again after that, It was the same promise I made 3 months prior this and because I'm weak I couldn't resist asking you again. But now something broke from our last intercourse, like you really don’t care anymore..

I hate you for what you became!

I hate the feelings that you make me feel!

I hate being someone that is so carved for intimacy!

I still love my wife that I hope is still there and not the person I have as a roommate.