He cannot be delusional enough to just think that everything is ok. I don’t know how many times I can try to talk to him to only to be met with grunts and indifference.

Just this morning I saw he had jerked off the night before again, and my confidence is completely shot. I feel like absolute garbage. I’m not against porn or masturbation, but when you’re telling your partner you want more sex and intimacy and their response is that they just don’t feel sexual anymore and rarely masturbate, it feels like a punch to the face.

So anyway, we were talking about redoing the walls of our house. He mentions that he wants to do the walls next to wear my kid and I sleep in our room first. I try to bring up that maybe it’s time we move the kids to their own rooms. He immediately gets defensive and says that means he has to move his stuff. I try to start talking to him about it, I’m about to say that I think it could help us and maybe they could sleep in the same room so he could still have an office while they’re little, but before I can barely start my sentence he’s saying, “Yeah, whatever, it’s fine,” and walking away from me. Keep in mind he hasn’t met my eyes since I brought up moving the kids.

I feel defeated. I feel like I’m stuck in a glue trap and the only person who can help me is my husband, but he just keeps telling me I’m not stuck. How am I supposed to do anything when every conversation ends up like this or with a fight that lasts days?