I have been with my partner almost 11 years. I cheated early on in the relationship as an immature way of dealing with his low sex drive and lack of clarity on his future plans for us. We had a son and our sex life became even less exciting. Around year 9 when I got pregnant with my second child we went down to about 8-9 sex sessions a year and have stayed there. I am extremely sexually frustrated, and also feeling neglected in other ways such as emotionally and with other types of physical intimacy. We don't sleep together, have sex, or even cuddle. Opposite schedules for work so we have about a 2 hour window where we're both awake and home. He proposed 2 months ago. What am I missing here? I'm honestly tempted to cheat again...

UPDATE* He read this post and the comments, and we are using this to have a more honest conversation than we have been able to have in the recent past. We are in couples therapy, both of our careers have grown tremendously while being together, we both prioritize our intellectual and professional development a lot. In that same vein, all the passion we put into our work often depletes us and we realized we are both afraid to throw each others focus off as we have big goals set for the next 2-3 years. My partner said that his knowledge that I am a SA survivor has left him hesitant to initiate if I am not already showing interest as he didn't want to trigger me. We will continue to read ur replies together and hash these issues out ❤️