Anyone else feel like the longer this goes on, the more you are annoyed by the small things your spouse does? I guess I was always able to overlook his bad habits and now they are driving me crazy. He eats like shit. He’s lazy and always low energy. He wonders why his body is falling apart but refuses to take care of it. I feel like he’s another child to take care of.

He finally recently initiated sex for the first time in months. 2 minutes in, he finished and it was over. No care in the world for my pleasure, after all these months of basically begging for sex. Now he’s talking about starting testosterone and how it will probably raise his sex drive. But what good is his libido being higher if he only cares about his own pleasure? It’s been 15 years of it being all about him. Any efforts to communicate to him what I wish would change are just met with unmet promises.

I love him. I’ve given my entire adult life to this man. We have children. He’s my best friend. But I think that’s it. And now I’m stuck. I see no way out. And he would definitely make my life hell if I tried to leave him.

Just venting. It’s incredibly lonely not having people to talk to about this stuff.