Yup, had sex in my youth but it was always vanilla since I wanted to save doing some things with whomever I married. I told my wife this and she never seemed interested other than making a baby. No foreplay or even quickie playing around. Child is a teen now and it's almost been a decade since she last let me touch her. We're getting older so I see very little chance in getting to do things that I always wanted to but I mostly wanted to connect with someone to share this with. It just makes me sad that my partner doesn't want me what feels like at all and I will miss out on some fun experiences. Thanks for letting me vent.