My friends & family have very little to offer in the way of support because they're either going through something of their own or I'm too ashamed to tell them the truth about the circumstances of my divorce. Because of that I make most of my posts here when I'm feeling bummed and looking for support. It's not perfect, but my therapist approves of me taking time to articulate my thoughts instead of filling myself up with them.

I just want to say that even though my posts (all deleted now, sorry) are kind of negative, I am glad to be going through the process of healing after the dead bedroom. I recognize that I am more traumatized and afraid to enjoy sex than I realized, but I am getting there. I feel the exact same amount of undesired, unlovable, and alone right this moment as I did in my marriage. The silver lining is that I can do something about that now, and every day I'm doing at least one thing.

Thanks for the continued support & sense of community I've sort of needed while going through this. I've had people reach out relating to my posts, offering kind words, offering excellent advice, and of course a few high quality yet unsolicited dick pics.

Edit to say that I'm only, like, a month outside of the marriage and I think it's pretty normal to be going through the pits of despair right now 😅