Hi, first of all I've browsed the subreddit extensively but didn't find many success (from my p.o.v.) stories, but there are some.

Second, I admit I'm more looking for support than real advise, but would take everything if not judgemental.

To cut it short, after 2 years of d.b. (zero sex in all forms). I came to think I have to cheat. I'm getting physically and psychologically sick from lack of a sexual relationship and becoming resentful towards my gf. I'm just 38. I never chose a life of martyrdom and celibacy.

However. I absolutely cannot and don't want to break up with my beloved s.o. for multiple and very compelling reasons.

I'd like to hear from people who cheated and salvaged their dead bedroom relationship this way. In particular, I'd like to hear about how you managed to survive the guilt and the feelings/intrusive thoughts of being "fake" when you are with your significant other.

What I don't want to hear is judgemental comments and people telling me not to cheat because it's morally wrong. I can accept people trying to dissuade me but only if you bring life experiences to support your comments and not moral stances.

Thank you all and merry Christmas.