I'm here again asking for others thoughts.

My partner 57m T is 254, I(56f) don't know if that's low or normal. He says he doesn't get morning wood much anymore nor does he get hard. We are in this DB at 5 years, he says it's my fault. Today, I said ok, let's say it's my fault. He couldn't tell me why it's my fault, except for him hurting me 5 yrs ago.

He then said I am to buy any stuff I think I needed, come to him and he would see if he had any response. If not, then I should just let it go. He also asked had I gone to the Dr and I said yes, I'm in menopause, don't qualify for HRT and I needed internal moisturizer.

I asked about his cheating, wanting to know why I wasn't enough? He says his cheating doesn't matter any more, he is here and now with me. I told him the mental and emotional toll on me does matter. He said he couldn't say sorry since he doesn't remember any of it. He also said he won't be cheating now as he is old and no one chases him like before nor is he in the bar all the time. I told him after all these years I've figured out there hasn't been a fucking thing wrong with me, it's all about him, his dick and what he wanted. I'm stuck on this and can't let it go I don't think.

He did say he loves me and will always love me but it's not the same as before. He couldn't clarify that for me. I asked if he associated sex with love and he said no. Sex is Sex.

During this convo we had he kept looking left, up and shaking his head, rolling his eyes. He wanted to know why I wanted him now, I've always wanted him and I told him we talked about this a few weeks ago, a few months ago and at least a year ago. He claimed he didn't remember we had this convo before. He does have TBI and cognitive decline.

Am I beating a dead horse here? Do I just suck up my DB and let it go? Do I start making an exit plan? I'm so confused and so frustrated and don't know what to feel or do!