Well, the time has come. For a quick TLDR; last year our sex life was very poor. It felt forced and she always seemed uninterested. That vastly improved and made me very happy. There are some things though that can’t be fixed, even with more love and affection.

I’ve decided at 37, I need to either stay and never have children or go and possibly become a father down the line. My choice was the later, I would love to become a dad. She did not want to have kids, nor adopt them. This week is the start of our trial separation and I think we both know it’s the end. We love each other, we are best friends, but there are certain things that you need to stand by and I agree with her choice and she agrees with mine. Neither of us are completely happy with it but here we are.

Hopefully in the future I cannot only fulfill my dreams but also find someone who tends to me as I tend to them. Things can get better and sometimes do. Don’t give up all of my db cohorts.