I just had yet another talk with my wife about just being able to touch her breasts during the very rare times we are intimate... I thought I did the right thing by asking how it made her feel... She has issues with all other sensual touching due to past trauma but it's only recently been a problem with her breasts.

She told me that since breastfeeding our kids she looks at her breasts differently and touching them doesn't do anything for her. I understand that, but the thing that kills me is that she doesn't think about me at all in this... I so want to give her pleasure but if she can't receive that, it's not like I'm hurting her to caress her. And I spend a lot of time trying not to stare at other women's breasts because I'm not supposed to, but she is the one I'm supposed to be allowed to look at and touch. It's so hurtful to feel rejected like this... I have so much to give and I just want someone who wants to receive it. This is the first time I truly realize that the roommate situation will be permanent, and I'm not in a position to leave anytime soon.

I'm tired of this, and lonely, and hurting. I've tried to tell her how much she is hurting but she doesn't seem to get it, and I have no one to talk to, so here I am venting lol!