I keep telling myself that I can’t do this anymore. I desperately want to make a change, but here I am still . . . lonely, hurt, frustrated.. I don’t even have anyone to talk to about how I feel. Everyone I know sees us as a successful married couple and family. No one knows what I’m going through. Besides, where can I go? If I left I would just be lonely somewhere else, but without my kids. But it’s torture here sometimes. I feel like every week that goes by is another wasted opportunity in a life that is not infinite. There is so much I want from life & so much that I feel I’m ready to throw everything else away to experience. But the older I get the fewer options and possibilities I have. Yet, I’m still here, by myself, going nowhere.