DB for 18months. No sex at all and maybe once or twice a month in the two years prior. Together nearly 30 years, married for 19, and have had relationship issues for probably about a decade. Two teens. Separate bedrooms for 18months and very little physical contact outside of an occasional hug or comforting back touch when someone is upset. In and out of couples therapy for like 3 years and very committed to it for the last 8 months I told him last Dec I was leaving I stayed I poured out my deeply pained and resentful heart in March about the physical rejection and feeling neglected and ignored for probably 6 years. He apologized and said he wanted to repair that. We have gone on about a date a month but that’s hasn’t repaired much. We feel like friends and that my question:

Has anyone in a LTR (sorry but if you’re age is less than the number of years we have been married, I’m not interested in your reply) made is back from a place where you feel kinda emotionally disconnected, there is something missing (besides physical intimacy) you feel like good caring friends but nothing more, and you are ok with that ?

I am horny ALL THR TIME and we used to have some fun sex but eventually the resentful feelings caused me to fake it, and eventually not even want to anymore. I say to myself if he lost weight, or actually gave me compliments, was romantic Ever, or did xyz, I’d be interested again, but if he tried, I know I’d feel the resentment turn it’s head and frankly I don’t give a shit anymore

Can you go too long so physically disconnected that it can’t come back bc you just don’t care?

I’m happy in my own little bedroom but I miss a partner, the connection, but not him.

It feels like all hope is lost…..