It has been months without anything. I know that's nothing to most of the posts on here. But my issues aren't just the DB it's just worse. I have been gone on buisness for two weeks in Virginia. I was extremely horny the whole time and just so tired and with so much resentment. I put out a post on RAOBJ and MD but that was useless. I nearly cheated three times if things would have worked out.

Let's see if I can count all the things...

I finally come home first thing I do I give her a hug and go for a kiss(1). She says "Okay" in a suprised confused tone. The guy here she is using to get her meds is still here she told me he needed to go while I was gone. I tried to be civil, not do much just try to enjoy being home. I walk past her bent over I pinch her ass(2) she says stop. I am so stressed I had been at the end of my rope for so long I don't want to live like this. I simply ask what the sleeping arrangements are, she said "we moved up stairs" for reasons. I said I don't care were you sleep or where he sleeps as long as he's not in there. She says I'm trying to kill her, that she will go commit suicide right now go jump off a bridge. I ask "why is it that hard? What's the arrangement? I'm only asking for something small. He can still stay, see says they don't have sex. She says he can't get it up if he tried. She tells me she wants to be stable. I say I want the same thing. I tell her he will understand, he knows of our relationship he will still have a place and it shouldn't matter where she sleeps unless there is something else. I tell her how angry I am, if she is just going to walk away and not make a effort I'll confront him. She stops me. All I want his my life back. She says I don't care for her, I tell her I do I'll do anything. I then tell her I nearly cheated on her(3). Her first response was "was it as a girl?" I admit, I was one of those people that pretended to be a girl on here for a bit, she used to be a cam girl I used to struggle with desires and I played a persona to see what the fuss is about. I confessed all this to her. And it has been a major point of contention in your relationship on and off. I don't do it anymore and I have been looking as a guy, even if the three hookups would have been with men that's here nor there and I really didn't want to bring that up as I've been trying to discover more about myself if she's not going to work with me. We do have a bit of a laugh. I tell her I'll give her 10 days she says that's fine. She says he has to go for his meds on Monday we will talk then. Later we were on our bed talking about dealing with the landlord, she was so close i had a headache and was just wanting to go to bed. I laid my head on her leg. She let me for a while, then asked me to stop. I asked her to come cuddle(4). She said no, then I told her how much I missed her and how I couldn't masterbate because I was living with a bunch of people. I asked her to leave so I could. She does I didn't I was too tired. I just want to punch something or someone. I never thought my life would be this way.