Does anyone else deal with the total mindfuck of feeling unattractive? I have such a hard time having my husband not want to touch me or want to be attracted to me that I want some validation that I’m not a grotesque monster. Every once in a while I would want someone to be attracted to me. I try to play it off that my DB doesn’t bother me but it does. I feel so ugly and worthless all the time and it’s hard to pretend that it doesn’t bother me. I hate what I see when I look in the mirror staring back at me. I hate ‘pumping myself up’ with a Beyoncé song pretending it doesn’t bother me. I had a friend tell me “ Its not like im not attracted to you or anything…” which is fine. But the choice of words just hurt. He didn’t. Say it to be mean to me. It was just in-jest. I know he didn’t mean it to hurt me in anyway but it’s just another person finding me unattractive. Sorry for the vent, im drunk off 2 bottles of wine so the feelings are flowing real bad. Thank for listening.