Been a little bit, for me [51 HLM] but I need an outlet..

It's been the typical boring past few weeks with no action in the BR.

This last weekend we, along with our grown daughter, visited one of her [46 LLM] girlfriends that we don't see in person much. We had lunch, had a good visit at her place for a few hours. Which means they talked alot and we all had some drinks.

I had a diluted vodka concoction the friend came up with and she had the lion's share of a bottle of wine over the course of several hours. Not enough for me to even start a buzz or enough for her to get much past a buzz if at all.

Fast forward about 2 hrs later while we're in bed. She started up on a monolog about how she wants sex, in general not just at that moment, but she's tired and can't "swing from the ceiling" anymore to get me excited. She's never done this, at least not for me, and I don't really need that. Just a little affection and attention would be sufficient.

She brought up the last few times I had some performamce issues but apperently forgot we had since discovered a dosing problem with my testosterone therapy. Besides, I have some pills, one of which I had taken since the odds are a little better in these overall circumstances.

She continued talking at me along this vein for what seemed ages. I didn't say much as I could just feel it would push one or both of us over the edge and end up in a heated arguement. At one point she said something to the effect "I'd prefer you go downstairs and do whatever it is you do to get you hard the come back up at anytime, wake me and do it." In a way that wasn't enticing at all and totally killed any mood I was in.

I eventually found the opportunity to excuse myself and go down to bed. I had no intention of giving her the satisfaction. This turn of events obviously left me annoyed and therefore I couldn't get to a restful sleep.

After about an hour or so stewing I decided to relieve some of the tension in best way I know how. I still had no intention of doing anything like she suggested. To heck with her right? Well that resolve went out the window after a few minutes of getting a good start. WTH, I went upstairs and directly went to it. Wasn't the most ideal but we both got something out of it.

So, for the past couple days I've been considering doing it again at some point. That is until it occurred to me alcohol was again a factor in her suggestion and actions. I'm pretty sure if I tried it again during the week while she's sober it wouldn't turn out nearly as well.

Now here I am once again in a physical and emotional limbo feeling hopeless as ever.

EDIT- A FOLLOW UP; https://www.reddit.com/r/DeadBedrooms/comments/113y0mr/looking_up_follow_up_from_my_last_post/