So I am 25 and she is also 25. So we met in college but it didn't went good as she had a bf back then . So I didn't confess to her. And we never talked again for 3-4 years .. I was doing my UPSC things and reached till interview once and was giving mains this year too .

Meanwhile last year I texted her thinking there is no point not talking as we were still friends in college . And a situation where we meet in future and not able to talk would be an insult to both of us . So I check up on her and it went great.

Over 2-3 months she told me she also felt that way for me and if I had told her in college she would have considered me . We got a little intimate. And she was always there for emotionally . She told me if we get in relationship it's going to be serious and I told her yes but I can't commit what's going to happen 2-4 years down the line as I am not even sure of my own life as of now .

Meanwhile it was all good and romantic but slowly it felt like going off. This month I told her that I will be there for her and if she could give me some clarity about future . Then she said that her last 2 bf's were toxic and before me she talked to 2 guys but she couldn't really feel that way for them . She told me that everything is great between us but she isn't sure.

So I tried but eventually i wanted some clarity as I am in peak time of my career and it was messing with my head . I told her if she even feels 0.1% for me i won't give up on her .and I couldnt talk to her for 3 years bcuz I felt I will fall for her again . But she said No and said she felt it for some time other then that she always felt that I am a very good human being . I asked her that why did you ask me about the future and all she said that she felt it for me for sometime .

So yesterday it ended on a sad note she said that she is also not sure that if she will find someone who is as sure as me and I was also not sure if I would find someone as good as her . I told her that we probably might not be able to make it work ever again given our ages .

It was sad but that's the reality . She seemed less hurt . I loved her a lot and if she comes back i probably won't be able to say no . She probably won't come back but even if she does my mind says say no .

If any one has any such experiences do let me know