this is not the steamy smut i’m sure most of you are looking for, but, i (21m) met a guy (45m) 2 days ago. you see, i live in florida near the coast where there’s a couple high end, private resorts on the beach. this man came here on a business trip. we met on grindr, got to talking, and by the end of the day he invited me to the resort for drinks. i almost didn’t go as i was already home and away from the beach, and it would be about a 35 minute drive to the resort. and now, i’m so glad i decided to go, but at the same time i wish i never did, because i don’t want to be feeling this. we talked for about 2 hours at the bar, just getting to know each other, and obviously getting drunk. it started to thunderstorm so we went back to his hotel room, talked for another hour, and enjoyed the lightening storm off in the ocean from his balcony. one thing obviously led to another and we ended up being intimate. i was drunk and wanted to stay the night, but ended up leaving anyways and had a friend come pick me up. my leaving was kind of rocky with him. i was lowkey hurt that he wanted me to leave, because i thought we were enjoying ourselves, but also understood he had work early. the next day, he texted me good morning and the entire day. he could be an asshole at times, but for some reason, i wanted to see him again. he was handsome, charming, and kind, but he also had this different, but inspiring outlook on life, and was great at giving advice. later, after work, we talked on the phone and he apologized for the night before, stating he didn’t realize how drunk i was, and if he did, he would’ve handled it differently. he asked me if i wanted to come over, and so i did. and the second time around was such a mesmerizing and romantic experience. we had a few beers, talked for a couple hours, and talked about our interest in music. i found out how soft of a person he actually was, and how attractive that was to me. this man had a heart. it’s hard to move past things with someone who is just as much of a hopeless romantic as you are… we were intimate for a second time, and this time around i was absorbing this experience in a way i hadn’t in a long time. it was amazing. i stayed the night with him, we held hands and cuddled until the morning. the entire day today at work, i was thinking about how badly i don’t want him to leave tomorrow. even though it’s been 2 days, him and i had a connection that i haven’t felt in a while. one that felt mutual, i wasn’t just giving myself to someone with nothing in return. for the first time in a long time, someone made me feel like i was wanted by just the look in their eyes. i had someone tell me how beautiful i was, how interesting it is that i feel so connected with taylor swift, and someone who was actually interested in me, my life, my experiences, and my body. it’s very unfortunate that our story ends here. but you know when you experience something this strong in such a short amount of time, you start to wonder that maybe he could’ve been the one if we had more time to get to know each other. but maybe it’s good that we only had 2 days. he could be a manipulative, condescending, piece of shit, too. i guess i’ll never know. this is just an unfortunate ending that leaves me with a feeling of despair. i told him i was sad he was leaving and he said that he always believes things happen for a reason, and that people enter your life for reason, and while unknown at the moment, your life is changed. i think that is such a clear way to put it, it’s very bittersweet.