I have 2 kids.. one bonus child; 4 years old, but at this point he is 100% mine. And one 6 month old.

Whenever I look at them, play with them, tuck them in at night, comfort them and.. well.. all the time actually. I just feel that I want them to allways feel safe. Not just be safe, FEEL safe.

Way back when I was a child, my dad was a big muscular and rough man. You know, the one you picture walking through the woods with an axe in one hand and a whole big tree over the shoulder.. he still is all that, and he was not cuddly in any way.. but whenever I could not sleep, because I was sick or had a nightmare, I would go in to mom and dads bedroom, and ask if I could sleep on dads arm. First he asked if I could not just go to sleep in my bed. But I just said no.. I did not realize then, but I understand now why he really didnt want me in their bed. Big as he was, and scrawny as I was (I was a twig), he would have killed me if he were to roll over.. so he stayed awake while I slept in their bed, with me curled up as a little ball with my head on his arm and my back against his side.

That feeling I felt when I layed there, was that nothing bad could happen to me. This was the safest place in the whole wide world. That feeling, that's the one I want my children to feel, always.

I know it's an imposible thing to accomplish. There will be moments where they will feel insecure, sad, lonely etc.. But i will do whatever it takes to make that feling a reality as much as possible.