Hey dads, It's been a rough few years and I've finally gotten to the place where I need to be in my career. I've risen above many others and have shown what I'm made of. I've struggled through addiction and so far have came on top. My addiction still temps me and I have to do everything in my power to stop myself from either using or causing myself to spiral into chaos. These past 6 months I have become mentally stronger and healthier. Physically, I don't look like a junky anymore. I went from roughly 105-110lbs to a whopping 150lbs with a lot of muscle to show. I'm happy to know and see what I have accomplished within this past year. I am struggling because I haven't received payment from my employer yet but that's just do to how they pay. I have been living in my car for about 10 months, working but unable to afford housing. I won't be able to find housing until my second paycheck. But, I'm working and making the most money my bio dad ever did in a month. It's not about the success or the money. I'm just grateful that I'm no longer attached to either heroin or women. The two things that I use to make me feel or to stop the feels. I'm grateful that I can feel again. I'm grateful that I can deal and handle those emotions now. I'm grateful that I used my savings to help and save my life. I used up 25k in savings but instead on drugs I used it for therapy, detox, rehab, and many other doctor visits. I have a son, I made it my commitment to make sure his life does not go the same way. I will not let that boy have to suffer the way his father did.

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Thank you for reading. I'm having a good day but when I wake up every morning. I can't help but think of my past. It isn't that far gone. I can still slip but if I do, I have to get back up and keep running. Nothing will get done if I just coast. As I did when I was younger, I will rage on but that rage will be directed into positivity. Restructure. I have been building for months and it's almost time to start moving into what I built. I am more of a man than I was and I will be more of a man tomorrow, next month, next year, and so on. I will keep going because I've seen what happens to men when they give up. I will never give up. Your grateful son.