Dad, today i had such a roller coaster ride of reality and what’s about to happen. I put my two weeks in on Friday and have been tidying up ends at work. With that comes a lot of free time to think. I know it’s something I should have done months ago but I blocked my ex GF. I’m done trying for something I know I won’t have. I know what I want and I’m pissed at myself for forgetting. I’m angry for letting myself go. I knew better but I still went for the worst to see how it feels. I’m learning how to forgive myself. You were never around to guide me as a child or mold me to be a man. I forgive you. Life sucks. But we have to keep pushing past that for the good moments. I have a lot of great things coming my way and I wouldn’t put it out to the world if it wasn’t happening. I’ve become such a humble man these days. I love who loves me and care for them. But I do keep my boundaries.

Your boy is finally going to be okay.