I was using heroin for the past 24 years. I’m 9 months 22 days sober. I’m divorced from a ten year marriage. I’ve been dating to find a partner for the past three years and the last woman I truly fell in love with I lied to. I was trying to hide my addiction by lying to her. It wasn’t about drugs but the way my junkie mind was rushing around I was out of it. I lashed out at her, while she was drunk. I’m not physical nor do I yell. It must have felt like I was yelling to her. After that night I blamed it on her ex boyfriend, i think I told her that she called me his name. She ended the relationship and I then went to her house a week later thinking it was a good idea (I was on oxys) she invited me in but then started yelling at me. She called her friends then the cops. I left once she called the cops. I wasn’t mean, I was trying my best to be friends. I knew that sobering up would bring back a lot of emotions but I can’t let go of her. I’ve tried to contact her over Facebook since she didn’t block me. She hasn’t responded. I loved my ex wife and have loved many others but I can’t shake this off. I still love her and would do anything to make her happy or safe. She told me that we would break up and never give up on her. I realize I’m probably being manipulated but this sucks still feeling that love. Thanks for listening dad.