first time poster [34NB-amab] and grateful this group exists.

Dad passed in 2019, and today’s the one-year anniversary of losing my roommate/friend/gay dad figure to suicide. bio dad is alive but estranged.

the grief over losing my friend and supporting his spouse has taken its toll as I navigate a personal transformation in my healing journey.

I come from a neglected background and have battled anxiety my whole life. being out and proud’s separated me from family who see personal issues as weakness of faith, and getting diagnosed with ADHD in June has left me feeling so defeated.

my executive functioning went haywire after my promotion to a senior team member at work and beginning a depression treatment a year and a half before diagnosis.

My emotional health and spirituality are growing after taking leave and refocusing on meditation and grounding, and therapy has been a lifesaver. Now I have to relearn how to live, undo 33 years of disorganization, get my emotional regulation under control, and accept my missing the mark at work to avoid disciplinary action.

A warrior is made, not born, but there are times I’m discouraged because my needs were ignored by family and the church, and my lack of preparation for adulting responsibly makes stability and having my shit together feel close to impossible to obtain.

Dads, bear hugs and reassurance that nothing in life is permanent are appreciated 🥺 thank you