Just a Rant looking for people that can relate!!!

Hey I don’t really know where to post this but I need to tell someone. I don’t have a relationship with my dad. And it really affects me since I work with mostly men. I see how they about talk and support their kids. And it’s something that I didn’t know I longed for. When I told my mom that I didn’t want to go back to college after I dropped out. That I wanted to purse a trade. She was worried at first but shortly came around and was happy for me. My mom really was so supportive and I’m grateful for that.

But now I really wish I had a relationship with my dad because somethings a man can understand better than a woman. I’m really into learning and working with tools. I love it so dearly I hope to have a garage solely for my tools and project cars. I wish that’s something I’ve could’ve shared with my dad. I don’t know what I’m looking for from this post. I don’t know who I truly am. I’m struggling so hard with identity and have no one to really reach out that understand what I mean.

And I hate depending on people because I get let down everytime. That’s why I work and try to learn as much as I can for myself. I’m trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel but at times it’s hard. I hope someone can relate or used to relate on what I’m saying as a woman in a blue collar world. I don’t have friends and I don’t go out. I’m just slowly becoming crazy holding this all in.