Dear little pooh bear,

I am awfully sorry!

You know I am not that kind of a selfish monster who only cares about his own pleasure. You know I never meant to hurt you. You know I love you and would like you to be happy. Please believe that night was an accident. When you said you wanna some rough sex, I was just trying to give you what you desired...

You encouraged me to be a man about it, my inner beast was aroused. When I was pulling your hair and ramming into you, I had no idea how detrimental my cock and fists were to you. Probably because I do resistance training every day, the amount of force that feels nothing to me could be unbearable to you. I really wasn’t knowing I was hurting you. Later on, I got so carried away. When I spanked you fanatically, I thought you enjoyed the pain. When you were yelling ‘no’, I just thought it was a kind of moaning. When I shoved my cock into your mouth and held your head forcefully, I wasn’t knowing you were suffering. It was all too late when I finally found out you were really uncomfortable -- when you punched my balls and left in tears.

Don’t worry. My balls are fine, and I have learned my lesson.

We used to be so dear to each other. Our kisses were always so passionate and warm. We could always tell the time when we needed a naughty tickle or a bear hug. I am always thrilled whenever I think of the day when you handed me the keys to your mind, body and soul…

Maybe from then on I grew a little entitled. Without challenge I became a little tyrant to you and a prisoner to my own warped beliefs. Whatever used to enslaving me, I believe your have snapped me out of it. It was your brave action that awoke me. Thank you for standing up to me, being stronger! You helped my empathy to grow, instead of my lust.

If you are done with rough sex, I would lock that beast to the bottom of my mind. Otherwise, I want to let you know I’ve done my homework and am now better equipped to fulfill your exact fantasy. Given the 2nd chance, I will set up the safe words and safe signals with you so that we can effectively communicate a willingness to continue or stop. I will do hair-pulling at ease because I have been pulling my own hair just to make sure the tension is not tearing. I will only grab a handful of hair from the skull, instead of a full ponytail strangle. Spanking would be enjoyable because I have been spanking myself in order to learn the right force, and to land my palm on the meatiest part of bum…

Let’s leave the heartbreak back in 2019, and enjoy the brand new 2020. Happy new year, my dear little pooh bear!

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Sincerely and blue-balled,

Matt