So it's been a while. I used to use psychedelics on a crazy different amount compared to more recently. I'm a very experienced psychonaut with dmt, shrooms, lsd, mdma, dmt,5meodmt, benzos,, 25i nbome (along with others not memorable), opiates, amphetamines, ketamine, ghb the whole damn works. It's been a fee years since I've done any psychedelics, I love them but my gf does not understand my appreciation and growth from psychedelics. She enjoys them like twice a year max including mdma and shrooms typically. I have had a lot of trauma and used psychedelics as a form of therapy to help myself be happy and appreciate life in a whole new aspect. They changed my life. My mother died and was homeless, family took me to court for guardianship of my sisters, my previous ex cheated on me with my best freind in my 21st after 2.5 years, my father's been a meth addict and felon since a month after my birth, my stepmom died from crack, I was raised around drugs and believe they can be helpful to say the least. I'm not saying to rely, depend, or abuse, but in my experience the correct drug In a good setting,okay mindset, and safe experienced freinds have done more for me than the people I know in therapy for years. Dmt has helped me overcome alot of past trauma and be okay as a functioning person in precious experiences.That being said I'm still scared as shit to trip again and have newer issues and problems I'm adjusting to. I want to trip and go out of body in 3rd person and deal with my things in my own way but family and relationships make me feel like a drug addict for using even In medicinal matters. I feel lost and without a path. I plan on using a dmt vape cart instead of dabbing to ease into it. Any feedback or dm's are appreciated. Dabbing is breaking through and idk if I can do that rn, but the most I get from it is when I push myself over the edge but idk if I can do it to myself anymore.