Before my trip:

Last week my friend bought a gram of DMT and offered me 150 mg, we've both have done it before but he's done it many more times then I have and I was pretty excited to do it since it's been awhile. We did it at his house later that night, we used his dab rig and he took the first hit. He loaded a small amount of his almost 1 g into the dab rig and handed me his torch to heat up the banger, this has been the best method we've found when using his rig. I watched as he blasted off and shortly after came too, he told me about the amazing fractals and entities he saw and became. Even though he's done it many times and is well aware of what DMT is like, it still hits him as if it's his first time. I eagerly await my turn as he loads up the dab rig with my hit, he pours about half of my 150 mg into the rig, I debate for awhile in my head before I ask him to pour the rest, he does it with excitement and hands me the rig. I take the rig using both hands and set it on the glass table in front of me, I start getting anxious but I'm not surprised, I haven't done any psychedelic in months, and I've forgotten how DMT feels and what to expect. after taking some rips from my dab pen I build up the courage and have my friend heat up the rig. I watched as the banger slowly fills with smoke, lean in, cap the banger, inhale, lean back, blow out, repeat 2 more times. The third and final time was almost impossible, I was fading in and out of consciousness and my vision was slowly fading into abstract thoughts as I take the last of the smoke. This time the smoke felt like it filled my whole body, I could feel the smoke fill my lungs and my stomach, I could feel the smoke pushing gently against the back of my eyes and travel though every nerve in my body, by this point reality wasn't real anymore, I don't remember exhaling.

This is a description of my trip:

After the third hit, the room I was once in pealed off into an infinite amount of impossible geometric shapes before morphing into a whole new landscape almost as fast as the room disappeared. Before I could realize it I was standing on what seemed like sand yet it was a perfect shade of purple, not too dark or too bright but the exact color you'd think of when you hear the word 'purple', grains of sands seem to randomly float into the air then disappear as if gravity doesn't affected those specific grains. I could see tall, sharp, mountains, slowly swaying in the distance, they where a dark purple that would slowly become lighter before darkening back to it's original color. The sky was the most beautiful gradient of pink and blue, with infinite fractals of stars flooding the sky, the sky alone put me in a state of awe. There wasn't much except for a beautiful sea of colors and stars but that was all I needed to be blown away, I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Suddenly as I was looking up at the sky, giant animal heads started to form from the stars, massive, great, god like animal heads such as a bear, a deer, a wolf, and some sort of majestic bird. I've seen humming birds on DMT before but I've never seen any other form of animal before this. The site of these great, enormous heads was pretty overwhelming, I felt small in their presence (because I was) and that made me feel more venerable than I have ever felt before, this wasn't a terrible feeling but it wasn't the most pleasant either. I felt this way until they spoke to me, all 4 spoke in unison but it wasn't verbal words, more like a feeling they communicated to me. If you've done DMT you'll know what I mean. They all told me to love myself more and treat myself right because each of them loved me more then I knew. This made me feel a sudden wave of warmth and love and any good possible feeling you could think of. I felt like the center of the universe, because the universe told me they loved me so much. After what felt like an eternity of being loved by what I will call the "Cosmic Animals" I returned back to reality still feeling this feeling of warmth and love. I told my friend about this amazing trip and felt the need to hug him, we've been best friends since freshman year of high school and now were both freshman in college, I've always seen my friend has a brother and I couldn't be happier to share this experience with him. We spent the rest of the night smoking a lot of weed and dabs, we wanted to make the night even more exciting so we tried to look for someone with acid, sadly no one had any to sell to us that was in the same town. It was also 1 in the morning by now so of course no dealers going to wake up to sell some kids 2 tabs of acid to only make $20, $30 if it's good acid, so we where out of luck. It's been about 5 hours since we did the DMT so we decided to do another round since we can't find any tabs. Luckily my friend still had a lot of his 1 g left, we didn't have a scale so we didn't know how much he had left so we just split his pile of DMT in half. He let me go first so I did, yet again I found myself in the same desert like place. But this time no "Cosmic Animals" only fractals made of stars. Everything was still very beautiful and breathtaking but I was disappointed there was no animals, there seemed to be no entities I could see only barren purple sand and mountains. But I began feeling the same feeling as before as if the "Cosmic Animals" where there, I felt the same warm, loving feeling but no form of communication from anything, only a feeling. I still felt amazing and loved everything but I felt a small amount of disappointment, this trip didn't seem as "interesting" you could say, almost as if nothing happened this trip. I came to and felt the same amazing afterglow, not as intense or profound but still amazing. I heat up the banger for my friend again and watch him blast off. We both share our trips with each other and continued our night, an hour later he wanted to do it again I told him I'd sit this one out, which meant more for him so he was ok with it. I didn't want to go again because I didn't want to be underwhelmed and become disappointed, specially how amazing the night started. I was also just too tired and wanted to sleep, so I did. that's the end of my trip

After my trip (Afterglow)

Not much happened the days following my trip, the day after tripping I didn't feel burnt at all and still felt great and as if something within me changed. I felt a bigger appreciation for life for the next couple days, although this feeling faded as my everyday life went on. It's been almost a week since I tripped and I don't feel any afterglow affects or change anymore and I no longer feel as strongly about that trip as I did before. Don't get me wrong it was still an amazing trip but at the time it felt like I went to heaven. But looking back it felt more like going into the house of someone you don't know and getting spooked by the homeowners massive dogs, only for them to come up to me and lick me and roll around all over me. It was an amazing trip and I'm glad I did it, what I saw will always be important to me although it wasn't life changing.

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This is a piece I made in Photoshop inspired by my trip. I thought it would look good in a watercolor style. I didn't see any planets I just added them cause I thought they would look cool.