How long does it take for the suicidal ideation to go away after dosing, what route are you using, what dose are you taking, anything else I should know?

Wish I had some, but the docs don’t like my history of opioid addiction and I don’t want to buy anything on the street because part of my day job is watching over the tests coming in regarding what’s in the street drugs being sold right now… You should see the crap they’re calling heroin! Xylazine, fentanyl, diphenhydramine, contraceptives, and for some reason, a little bit of cocaine. If it’s a powder sold on the street, no way. Even the k has been contaminated with xylazine and diphenhydramine! And that’s just in San Diego; in Zurich you literally can’t find heroin that contains any heroin; it’s usually 60 parts xylazine to 20 parts fentanyl to 20 parts random chemicals like lidocaine or precursors!