After being re-traumatized as an adult (although we were like this to some extent before things got worse as an adult,) I usually exist as multiple self-states at most times. Most of my alters have alternate identities. There is usually one or more smaller, fragmentary alters intruding on the non-trauma identities' existence. Because I had a split life, I usually have a second main identity present that knows but doesn't directly remember the extreme things - that is held in other alters. Many behaviors and functions are split into multiple identities and I switch interchangeably between them to complete a process.

It's hard to think because I'm always talking, gossiping, joking, creating things to myself. I'm almost never alone in my head but it does sometimes happen. Certain identities, some contain trauma and a few don't, are very distant and have "clean" thinking that is highly distinct from all of the other identities.

I find that time loss is often very indistinct and shared partially between multiple alters due to this type of switching.

I'm polyfragmented. I find that a lot of my alternate identities are split in this particular way - there is an identity that remembers a behavior or a role, and another one nearby that remembers the memory and context that demanded that defensive response.