Started seeing a new therapist who specializes in DID about a month ago. Have had 2 sessions. Haven't even remotely mentioned DID.. I'm bad at not actually saying my symptoms because of fear and embarassment. I feel like I present too.. normal. And put together. I never discuss my actual batshit crazy symptoms and the way I/we can act.

I mentioned I have BPD but nothing on paper because of my age.. And it seemed like he is acting I don't have it.. I do, but I never talk about the way I act.. I make myself sound much more put together.

If I cannot even talk about symptoms I have had for years that I 100% know I have.. how can I begin to talk about DID??? I feel like I will look like a liar. It's so difficult. All I say in therapy is I'm having some relationship issues and act like.. I'm a mostly normal person. Keep saying I had a great childhood. That I'm doing well.. I feel fake and like I should quit already.

I guess.. how did y'all do this? I can't send an email (already asked about this). My anxiety about being seeb as fake or being judged or being secretly though of as a liar or somebody who has no clue what they are talking about is overwhelming. I don't know what to do. :(