I’ve been seeing my therapist for years now and we get along great and they diagnosed DID but I’m worried about not being physically with anyone while exploring this.

It’s not even like I can put it off for any amount of time either bc like they’re all showing up in therapy and sometimes it’s scary bc I can feel that it’s not me and I might be watching it but I won’t be able to do much about it…like last time someone almost slammed the laptop shut! It was so hard to keep them from doing it and I don’t think they would’ve answered the phone when our therapist inevitably called, and tbh I know my therapist has anxiety too I don’t need to do that to them. I also had very strong urges to self harm and I’ve been getting them a lot during and right after therapy and for now just waiting a few minutes works and it goes away…but when it’s there it’s so strong.

Idk it’s like I almost feel unsafe doing this online rather than in person but there’s absolutely no one else I’d be able to do this with and in person with them isn’t an option for us.