hello! my name is melody, i also go by mel or mels. i'm 29, nonbinary fem leaning (they/she) & i live in ma, though i'm relocating to wa in a couple years, so i'm looking for someone on either coast or just online ^^

before i get into the nitty gritty of telling you about myself, here are some flags that may or may not be red depending on your preferences :p

• i'm disabled. i'm not housebound or anything but i have difficulty doing things at times. i don't work & i can't drive because of it & i'm on disability income because of it.
• i'm childfree insofar as i will not give birth to a child ever, for various medical & emotional reasons. i'm not adverse to someone who already has kids, or may want to adopt an older (4y ) child in the future, i just don't think i'm emotionally or physically equipped to be a mother to an infant or have the child myself.
• i very much hate cats & i tolerate dogs at most. i have ocd so i have a hard time around pets in general, & i have terrible, awful, debilitating allergies to just about everything, especially fur.
• i will not be interested in anyone who smokes weed or cigarettes. due to the aforementioned allergies, smoke inhalation is a bitch. i also have trauma from a bad living situation that involved weed, so the smell triggers intense panic attacks for me. no judgement, i just do not want someone who smokes in my life.
• i'm a leftist & aggressively queer. i'm anti-capitalism & am rooting for the downfall of most american institutions. we probably won't get along if you hold anything american in well regard lol

soooooo, is anyone still here? taps mic

if there is, let's continue to some actual fun stuff about me! (:

i'm 5'1 & on the heavy side, though i'm attempting to get my weight under control. i have short dark hair that i'm growing out & considering dying. my eyes are green & i have a lot of freckles. i'm an author & i do writing commissions to get by financially. i look forward to the day i have more time & energy to write another, better book. i love video games, it's about all i do all day, especially ffxiv. if you're a daddy & play xiv, you're legally obligated to message me lol. i enjoy anime at times, my favorites are death note & attack on titan with demon slayer at a close third. i spend a ridiculous amount of time with my best friend, so know you're really special if i drop plans with her to hang out with you :p i love reading when i have the mental energy for it, my favorite authors are neil gaiman & madeline miller. i enjoy making my own tea blends. my favorite animal is a tie between bunnies, fish, & birds. my favorite cartoon is spongebob ^^

what i'm looking for is a daddy who enjoys taking care of someone who doesn't have a whole lot of material or tangible things to offer, but someone who strives to satisfy emotionally & physically. i wanna be a stay at home free use pet or something like that lol. i spend a lot of time during the day thinking about how i could be of use to someone who loves me, if i found someone like that. i think using my body to satisfy someone i love is my love language, next to quality time spent together lol. i would love for the dynamic to be as close to 24/7 & TPE as possible, within realistic expectations of adulthood (booooo).

personality wise, i like nerdy guys who have a passionate interest they can talk at length about. even better if it's something we have in common with, but not necessary so long as we listen attentively to each other ^^ i'd like someone open minded & affectionate, who will love me despite my weight, not because of it. it's something i hate about myself & cannot tolerate someone celebrating about me, so no "bbw lovers" please. i would ideally like a guy who has a lot of time to message & talk throughout the day, since i have a lot of time to talk then lol.

as far as my kinks & little fantasies & all that, i recently wrote this rp post that has basically everything i'm looking for physically on it. i'd appreciate a glance through that before you message me (: if you do message me, please don't just drop a one liner after i've put so much effort into this post. that's so disrespectful lol. tell me about yourself, give me something to reply to!!! :p