I'm a little and I've previously only been in a polyamorous relationship. I did sex work online, had multiple partners, and lived with a partner. I was basically fed sexual attention and/or praise 24/7 and I pretty much wanted it as much as I could get it.

However, I've entered a new relationship where we are monogamous. I'm super happy, like he's my forever person. He gives my so much of his time and love and care. But, I feel like I annoy him with how much I crave his attention. I think of him 24/7, when we're not together I write stories fantasizing about us, sing songs for him, paint pictures for him. I want to play together until we're literally both exhausted and spend every other moment doding over each other.

I have always had an imbalance in myself in relationships where I feel obsessed and crave mutual obsession. I was severely neglected in my childhood and still feel a deep insatiable need for the attention I never had as a little. It's kind of like when a toddler comes up to you, says "look", does 1/4 of a somersault, and then repeats over and over. The only area of my life that this comes out in is with my romantic partners, and more than ever, with my Daddy.

I previously compensated for needing more attention than is really reasonable by being in polyamorous relationships. However, that's not how I'm oriented and am really only attracted to and interested in my Daddy.

I'm completely emotionally stable outside of this and it isn't because of a honeymoon phase, this is just always how I am and always have been.

I guess what I'm asking is how can I try to fix it his about myself? I love him so much and would be devastated if I drove him away by suffocating him or being obnoxious with my obsession with him.