Okay im going to edit this post because there is massive misunderstanding happening. Because i dont want to delete i just put the original in quote.. but apparently its confusing.

- im not having ANY confusion about my gender, identity or sexual organs. I like them all. I identify as a cis woman.
- Within the ddlg world, i am a little girl. The problem i am having is WITHIN this dynamic. I would like to be submissive sexually, just like i am submissive outside the bedroom. However, i have trouble with that because i feel penises are way more "sexual" and easier to handle. Therefore, i sometimes feel like it were easier if i had a penis, so that scenes would actually work out. You can easily grab a penis, do purposeful things with it, etc. Vulva stuff feels extremely limiting to me. It doesn't make me feel like a little girl when having to "deal" with the feelings that i get, in comparison, a penis seems to be much much easier and straightforward.

- Because penises are way easier to handle, its very difficult to feel submissive in the bedroom when i can literally pleasure but then in reverse this is a different story. I dont have to explain this but its a known thing i believe that there are more "mysteries" as to how to pleasure a girl.

- I have zero desire to fake having a penis in any form or shape. Im solely talking about the physical feeling of pleasure.

Please if you think i have gender questions or dont see how this related to ddlg, please be empathic and dont comment because this is a very sensitive topic. I just want to feel LESS strange not more.. Nor judged that i dont belong in ddlg with this. I want to please a daddy dom as a cisgender girl. Im just questioning if its normal that that doesnt seem as pleasurable *for me* simultaneously, because of the limitations of a vulva and the difficulties that that comes with.
So i imagine a daddy can easily get off, i get played with but it isnt as easy.. etc. So then im not being a good girl i guess because things dont work out. Or them not easily being able to find the right spots. Or trying to but if i have to readjust constantly, it creates bad tension and theres not gonna be a next scene.

As a young person i never had any doubts about gender or genitalia i was born with or grew up with. I was always very sure of my gender, i was a girl, im a woman now, and i love being a little girl. However, after i'd had been sexually active a few years, I started wanting to have a penis instead sometimes. I like the way i look though, its solely a feeling thing.. and even after learning more about female anatomy (that it also supposedly swells and hardens) its just not the same. I love the way penises experience pleasure, how much it shows and everything..It feels very weird to ask advice on this but it is bothering me very much. Because whenever I try to google search for this, i end up getting info on penis envy, and its not that at all. Im not really wishing i had a penis to have more power in society or something.. I dont ever wish i had a different gender, or looked differently. And i also have no desire to peg or penetrate. But being penetrated is just not the same it seems, penises seem to enjoy things much much more, lose control out of pleasure, and all that.Does anyone else feel like this too? Sorry if my explanation sounds incoherent.. Im very uncomfortable sharing too much about this in public because it makes me nervous hah

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