tw: rape

background: I met my daddy through reddit(different account) and he's my first daddy ever. I'm pretty new to actually being in a dynamic, though I've read a lot about DDlg dynamics over the years. So I might be inexperienced or a little more clueless than I should be. He lives near me, about a 30 minutes drive on a good day, so I get to see him sometimes, and we text everyday when we can't see each other. we're also both poly, and he allows me to see other people as long as I'm following the safe sane and consensual rule, and I make sure everyone has a recent clean STI test. I don't know if he is with other people currently since I never asked him to tell me when he is, but I'm sure that if he is he follows the same rules for himself.

so here's the problem: I experienced rape recently, and as a result I've been feeling extra little and vulnerable. Mostly just struggling to keep my emotions in check and having a lot more dark thoughts than I've had in awhile. I've reached out for help in a couple different places, and they've all been great, but they're not my daddy, and I really just want him to talk to and cuddle. I've been trying to communicate to my daddy that I feel this way and that I need more help than I did before when I'm little, and sometimes hes able to help me out, like by sending me a bedtime story or calling me on the phone to let me just be little. but he's been super busy recently, and while the occasional phone call is nice, it's not enough, and I don't know how to tell him that in a way he'll understand. We used to see each other at least once a week, it's now about once every two weeks. I understand that he's busy and he literally doesn't have more time to see me, but I've found myself crying a lot more than I used to because I miss him so much. How do I respect that he doesn't have more time for me but get across that I need more? Do I need to just suck it up and accept that I won't be able to see him as often as I want to?