So, I've been wanting to write this for a while but I never know how to start. I (F32) feel really lonely, and I don't know if this will be the best place to explain it but I feel comfortable in the community.

My current situation is really bad, I have no job, no income, waiting several months for a visa, I live with my father (biological father) in my country of birth, which causes me depression and extreme anxiety. My partner (who is not my daddy) and my cat are in the UK, where I used to live these last two years and I miss them immensely. Living here I am not able to feel my little space and feeling good about it, I always have to hold her back when I am accompanied because it is something frowned upon, and when I'm alone I'm so extremely depressed that I don't want to do anything. The relationship with my partner is not good at all either and he knows all about this and my feelings but even I've talked with him still being the same so I do not feel understood, validated, supported or comforted in any way.

I have met several "daddys" over the years and they have almost always been a failure since they always look for the "little wh*re" knowing from the beginning that my little is SFW. I would like to find someone who has enough emotional maturity to know how to handle not-so-good situations without becoming an asshole, who understands that for me it is not a sexual role but a form of emotional copy. Have emotional responsibility towards others. But I really think that I will never find someone like that and also a daddy to me. It's very discouraging and saddens that when you want to search for someone only fakedoms appear like mushrooms in the forest. It is exhausting.

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I'm sorry for all this drama, but I needed to vent. 💖​💖​💖​

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