I’ve been a little and in the bdsm community about 3 years. I have had a Dom and a Daddy, both ended up not really being what I’m looking for. I feel like I’m asking too much. I want to fully submit and give myself to my Daddy. I want him to help me find my little space in a safe environment. And also separately help me explore all the kinks and learn all the things. I keep being let down by guys that just wanna play partner for a night at a dungeon I love impact but I don’t wanna play and not be in a relationship. Is that not something that happens do I have to just find partners and hope we click enough for a real date.

Also for context I’m married, we’re polyamorous he’s got one toe in the kink world has been to dungeons but doesn’t really like it to the extent I want to be involved. Which is ok cause he can have his vanilla partners and I can have my kinky ones. Nbd, most ministers are poly anyway. Also I’m a bigger girl. Not the biggest but definitely overweight, so maybe guys just don’t want to have a fluffy little?

Just kinda want encouragement that it’s possible it can happen for me.