Starting to feel like I’m crazy. When I watch a movie or a play I want to consume and be immersed in the story. But I also want others to enjoy the immersion with me. That said, it seems like when I watch a movie or a play with friends, they think it’s invitation to not pay attention to it, talk about it the entire time, or find something about it to make fun of.

Now if someone likes to watch movies and talk at the same time, that’s how they like to do it and I’m not judging. But it’s like sometimes when I’m watching something with someone and I do not talk, or they talk to me, I acknowledge them, then return to watching, they have this attitude of “why did you even want to do this together anyway?”

Am I insane? This makes me feel very unlikable and lame but I don’t understand why you wouldn’t want to fully consume a story or piece of media/theatre.

I went to see Othello, a fucking Shakespeare play, with some friends and they were talking the whole time (we were in the balcony and there weren’t that many people around tbf) and nudging me trying to make jokes and get a response out of me, meanwhile I was so captivated. I smiled and acknowledged them then returned to watching the play, and my friend was almost offended I was not talking to her.

Later she asked what I thought and I said “I fucking loved it” and she was like “really?” So maybe she just wasn’t enjoying it, idk.

Is this a bizarre thing that I do? Does anyone else do this and feel like this?