I hate myself. So much. Now I have added this to that list. But it made me soooo happy at the same time!

I did it on my hip, so I'm the only that will see it. I didn't do deep AT ALL. When finished, I took an alcohol swab/pad thing (meant for cleaning small cuts from like nicking yourself with a safety pin or something, my grandma uses them for herself when she does her insulin) and cleaned them. Only made 3-5 mines. Covered with a bandaid with Neosporin on it.

This is my first time. I used a blade from a pencil sharpener, but I don't know where to store it. I've tried self harming before but never got up the courage to do so.

I finally got the courage. And I both hate and love myself for it.