A few years ago, I was working for a private art procurement business and my boss (technically my bosses boss) and I had an immediate, intense attraction to each other. He was late 30's, quiet and confident.

We started talking on personal social media and somehow both kinda figured out we were into the kink of "patriarchy" and (ab)use. He was super clear that he couldn't be in a relationship but suggested fwb where he would selfishly use me for blowjobs.

I was really into him and loved the idea because it made me feel used; that I have no value outside of my ability to give sexual pleasure to a KING. I was 100% aware that I was putting in all the work and received none of the pleasure or security. I secretly liked that. Even though he never made me orgasm once, this dynamic was for sure the hottest 4 months of my my life because of how one sided and "service oriented" it was. I think most women (and even men) would get bored but I never did.

Patriarchy is hot AF and serving it with my mouth is a core feature of my sexual identity.