I'll keep this short, since I already lost the text once. I'm giving up on trying to cum from anal.

I'm a straight guy obsessed with anal sex and the prospect of cumming from anal only without any penis interaction at all, absolutely no conditions other than that it must purely be from prostate stimulation. I'm a purist in that belief and I'll say it a thousand times over, otherwise it isn't a real sissygasm.

Today's my 32nd birthday. Instead of masturbating, I'm sitting up in my bed, wallowing over how I won't be able to join an exclusive club of people capable of doing such an amazing thing with their bodies. If you name something to try, I'll tell you that over the past five years of trying, I've done it. I've done it all, and it hasn't worked. I've gotten close, but then I've spent 30 minutes on the edge, leaking my balls out, unable to produce my sperm and it's become the worst sex obsession I've had.

I don't want advice. I don't want help. I don't even want to be spoken to... I just want this feeling too be over and all of the misery of failing to be good enough for you to end. I wanted to be able to show off to this community so bad, but I'm tired of trying and I'm tired of drowning my obsession in a journey that loops back in on itself with no destination. I'm finally finished.

I'm sorry I couldn't show you anything. I've been lurking here for ages, but I was always only excited to join everyone here in being able to show you what my body could do. I'll probably sleep and forget I posted this in the morning, but I suppose that'll be what happens.

So... Yeah.

Forgive the link. I couldn't post this without providing one.