You may remember me from this post or the post before it

https://www.reddit.com/r/CuckqueanCommunity/comments/xzj1g5/my_girlfriend_is_ashamed_of_her_fetishes_how_can/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

One thing i want to update from that post was we talked to her friend and she agreed she’d never flirt with me without either of our permission, and she would never tell anyone about her fetish - they both cried and hugged it out, shes a good friend

To make a long story short, since that update post, we’ve been doing small things that she’s comfortable with exploring her cuckquean side. Like me pointing out a girl who’s hot, being less cuddly and pretty much ignoring her when at restaurants and making it obvious I’m flirting with waitresses, and recently I moaned another woman’s name when cumming which really made her happy, but also sad at the same time since she’s still new to accepting her fetish and still is insecure and cries occasionally, both happy and sad. so we agreed to hold off on as many going forward until she says she wants me to do it

However one thing happened recently that has kinda caused strife and her to non stop apologise and cry about.

Ok, halloween night I was groped in a club by an older woman. Their group of older (late forties/ fifties) women came in and were flirting and grinding/ twerking (badly) on guys young enough to be their sons. One woman came up to me, shoved her face onto my neck, sucked and licked it (I assume to give me a hickie) smearing purple lipstick all over. Whilst she did this she grabbed my crotch really hard that it hurt. Like she had my scrotum in her fist through the jeans so she was gripping me hard.

I batted her hand away and me and my friends called her out on it and told her to leave us alone, to which she turned to her friends and jokes I’m a grower not a shower before laughing and leaving.

I felt gross afterwards. Not only did I not consent to this, but I had to clean her lipstick of my neck and could feel my testicles throb due to how hard she gripped. As well as the fact that when I rebuffed her advances she tried to humiliate me by saying I have a small dick.

Now here’s where this sub comes into play. Yesterday I told my girlfriend what happened and she cuddled with me because I was clearly pissed off and annoyed that it happened and I just explained what happened, where we where, what she did and what she looked like and how I feel embarrassed I didn’t stop her sooner (it went of for like five seconds). To which we were in silence for a long time just cuddling, I assumed we were both trying to figure out how to address it. But that came crashing down when my girlfriend said “yknow that sounds pretty hot, I would have loved to have seen it”

Awkward silence ensues until I lift her head off of my chest so she can look at my face and just say “excuse me?”

I think when she realised I was serious and didn’t find it funny or hot and that I was genuinely grossed out that I was GROPED by a STRANGER, she immediately freaked out and regretted saying it to me and began a tirade over the past two days of apologies, crying, calls, texts and so, so much self loathing about her kink.

And here is where I need advice:

On one hand I can understand that she’s really sorry and can’t help what she’s turned on by and is seemingly genuinely sorry and is cursing herself out saying she’s a freak - and I want to be there for her to console her and help her

But on the other hand I’m really pissed off that she not only told me that in the middle of an intimate moment where I was raw and Emotional after telling someone I was groped, but also that she found my sexual assault a turn on - there was no way she could have misinterpreted what I told her, I made it clear I was angry and humiliated and there is no way she tried to make it a joke and I read it wrong, she was being genuine when she said it turned her on, I can tell.

Idk what to feel, any advice would help