Hi I’m (m20) here about an issue that has erupted recently regarding my girlfriend (f21) of 10 monthes and her cuck queen fetish.

For starters/ to lay the groundwork - She has a big CNC fetish that’s ive partook in to some extent, though we plan on doing some in-depth roleplay in the future.

Right now we mostly do creative writing, like making scenarios we could do with eachother in the future (horny sinner, innocent nun - home invader, house wife - priest, bride to be - etc with some for me as the one being R’d - crazy ex girlfriend, soon to be husband - mother in law, abstaining boyfriend, remember that one it comes into play later). She isn’t as ashamed of this fetish as she is what I’m about too write, hence why I have come here today, though to an extent she is (she was in an Abusive relationship and feels that what caused the CNC fetish)

She recently told me and had a breakdown over her cuck queen fetish - she made it abundantly clear she doesn’t want any of us to step outside of monogamy because she knows she wouldn’t be able to handle (i feel the same tbh, I’d feel like she’d want to sleep with some else if I’m also doing it and I know I’d get jealous, it’s a line for me). She essentially told me she gets turned on by thinking of me sleeping with other women, hence why she likes the roleplay creative writing we do because it’s essentially masturbation material for her - but instead of horny sinner and innocent nun, it’s me and the nun. She told me she had fantasies of me with her mom (I guess my mother in law, hence why I mentioned the earlier scenario), her aunt, her sisters, her lecturers, her friends, etc. She told me liked the idea of watching, being forced to participate, being tied up and gagged and made to watch and to eat the creampie. She said all of this with great difficulty and crying ur couldn’t stop, she was pretty much word vomiting.

Now I’m going to be totally honest with you here, I’ve always had a somewhat negative opinion of cuckoldry, mostly because i couldn’t understand it. And I feel real shit now because as much as my girlfriends turned on by them, she is incredibly ashamed of it and feels lousy and ‘disgusting’ in her own words a and I dont want her to feel like I think she’s gross. She said she’s only comfortable with me using a fleshlight and making her use it on me, saying how much better it is, etc.

But that’s where I am right now, I’m not really into the idea of nonmonogomy and an open relationship and she is adamant she doesn’t want one and is ashamed of her fetish. How can I console her and help her with her feelings on the matter? And how can i help her come to terms that having this feitsh is not a bad thing despite her not wanting to try it out and that I don’t judge her for it (because I don’t despite my past mixed opinions).

Thank you in advance