So the thing is, I know I have a cuckquean kink for sure myself. But physical real life relationships aren't my thing due to my trauma and how people look at me like I'm a weird one for that.

For now I really enjoy chatting up with other couples online, and then watching them have sex. It really makes me so hot and I get really worked up with that. It gets me hot like nothing else, not even porn or anything. Because for me it's the personal connection I develop with them that makes it all extra special to me.

Now after all this, I think of myself as a virtual cuckquean to them having sex with their partners and I don't know if I'm truly a cuckquean or it's just my way of thinking or what. Can anyone tell me if what I'm thinking is right or what? I am really confused if I should call myself a cuckquean or not.

Apologies for grammar, my English isn't very good, it's not my first language.