1 month after I told her I wanted to share her, she talks to me about sharing ME.

Hi,

Im a 29yo man, my GF is 26yo.

We've been together for 4 years now, and since last year we've started to talk about fantasies, we've discussed swinging, side-by-side sex, threesomes with a woman and threesomes with another man, but the discussions were interrupted for several months. And lately they've started up again, and I have a kink to see my wife with another man, so I recently confessed to her, and 1 month after she talks to me about sharing me in the bedroom.

I'd like to know what you think because I'm very surprised that she's talking to me about this because she didn't talk to me about it at all before, and since I've talked to her about sharing it with other men, she's starting to talk to me about sharing me.

Yesterday, I was sunbathing on my balcony, dick in the air, and I noticed a neighbor on the other side of the canal that separates us, watching me and checking me out, I told my girlfriend about it who seemed excited by the action.

Then later, she initiates sex, and she tells me about this woman who was checking me out, and she tells me that what turns her on is imagining me fucking another woman while my girlfriend is right underneath licking her clit. Then I tell her that only once have I imagined a 3-way with another girl, it was with one of her friends 1 year ago who was super hot at a party we'd organized, my girlfriend and I had fantasized about it several times, she'd even told me to imagine "fucking her fat ass".

But we never talked about it again (must be 1 year ago) And yesterday during sex, after she noticed me the woman on the balcony, I said to my GF : - « I imagined fucking other girl just once with you, it was with Pauline" - she said "ah yes I remember, you liked it" - I said "yes, I had the impression that she wanted to fuck you" - she said "ah well?! I had the impression that it was with you" - and I said to her "I think she was in the mood for both of us" - she said with a super excited and surprised look on her face "hmm yes, you really think so? She was really sexy, wasn't she?"

I confirm and make her imagine that she's licking Pauline's pussy, she's getting off on it, she had such big eyes filled with pleasure, she told me "if this continues I'll cum so fast and so hard" I had rarely seen her excited like that (but maybe I'm wrong, you'll see the rest of the story).

Then suddenly she stops, and says "sorry, but suddenly it cut me off, I really felt like I was licking Pauline, and that really weirded me out, even though it's been 1 year since I've seen her, I've known her since college, I don't know, it's weirding me out, I'm thinking that if she comes home one day we won't be able to look at her like we used to, and I've got the impression that you find her sexier than me".

So I reassured her, telling her that there was no problem, that I understood if her desire went back down, and that she's the sexiest by far, that I love her, that I don't think anything's wrong, and that honestly it turns me on that she told me about it, but that it's not my biggest desire, because I'd rather be with a man than see us have a 3-way.

She told me that it's true that she has no reason to doubt me, and that she was really very excited, but that she needs time to recover from this emotional shock that she feels has disgusted her.

The time it took to have a coffee and talk about everything and nothing, before she said to me "about earlier, don't think that it was you who disgusted me, because that's not the case, it's just that I was completely excited by the idea of the 2 of us with another woman, it's just this precise situation that cut me off in my excitement."

Does my girlfriend really have her desires to share me beyond fantasy? I didn't think so, but thinking back it excited me a lot that she told me this fantasy of sharing me, but I'm afraid to bring the subject up again outside or during bedtime for fear that it was just a passing fancy only at that moment.

I'm confused, because my greatest desire is to share her with other men, and I'd never thought about the fact that it might turn her on to share me with another woman.

What can I do? Thanks in advance for all your future advice!