My husband slept with someone else without me, totally consensual, you can see the play-by-play in my post history. I had to call yellow and in hindsight I was probably better off calling red. I've been struggling with it since. This entire time since I first stumbled across this kink I wanted to be there watching but he was worried about pressure to perform and awkwardness being stared at so we did it this way for our first time.

All three of us are interested in doing this again but different in more of a threesome fashion where I can kind of be a supplemental or supportive character, that way I'm not making him uncomfortable just watching and I'm not feeling completely left out either.

Is this a reasonable take? Has anyone else had this boundary and it works for them? I'm just interested in anyone's experiences involving this. I don't want to have to call Red and get hurt again if I can help it. I'm also questioning if this kink may have been better left as fantasy or if I just allowed my own boundary to be crossed and that was the problem.

Important to note that I did get plenty of pics and videos and still look at them very fondly 🔥