For some background, i have wanted to have my wife fuck other men since before we were even married. I have known that i wanted to have a hotwife even when i was in high school. I knew even then that i wanted my girl to be sexual with other guys while i stayed faithful to her. I shared this with her very early on in our marriage. At first, she was shocked, and accusatory toward me saying that i just wanted her to do that so i could have sex with other women. After much talk and sharing, she finally decided to try it. it took 5 years, but she finally decided to try.

she met a guy online in a chat room (remember AOL?) and decided to meet him in a hotel room. Unfortunately he was a selfish lover and didn't really make it enjoyable for her. To compound the tragedy, i was so excited that when she came home, all i could focus on was myself and how excited i was and i totally missed that she was not happy. It did not leave a good experience memory for her at all.

after that she basically shut the idea down as she felt like i was treating her like an object and not as my wife. Much to my chagrin, she was right. I was too immature and selfish at the time to see beyond my own excitement and thrill.

a few years later, she met another man online and struck up a relationship with him. She was very hesitant to share anything with me based on my previous behavior and her "unfun" experience with the first guy. after a few months of talking with him online and on the phone, she decided to meet him in Las Vegas for a weekend getaway. She was very nervous to tell me given my previous behavior. and i totally get it.

She went with him for the entire weekend, but had zero contact with me during that time. I was actually ok with that, but was dying with anticipation and excitement for her return. when Monday came and she returned home (she was with him for 3 days and 4 nights) i was thrilled and excited to say the least. She told me that they had sex several times, and of course oral and that he came in her mouth and she swallowed. That one got me, as she has NEVER allowed me to do that. I was thrilled!

about 3 weeks later, he invited her to his house to stay for a full week. so she got on a plane and off she went. After the week was over, i picked her up from the airport and we drove home. She was very quiet about the situation and shared very little about what had happened. When i would ask, she was very quiet, and if i pushed it at all, she would get upset. I was left to assume that they had some kind of argument or whatever. They really never talked again.

Since that time, she has had numerous online flings, but to my knowledge, has never been with another man again. I suspect she has but she denies it. One of the fallout things from this event was that any time i brought up her having sex with someone else, she was angry and finally asked me to never bring it up again. I respected her, and have not mentioned it in years. But i am desperately desiring her to do this again.