I've always considered myself super sexually exploratory... it's been about 7/8 years since I first became a "bull". I hate that word, but I definitely explored the lifestyle and have thoroughly enjoyed playing that role as a "BBC bull" to some couples.

I had a really smooth introduction into the lifestyle, where I met lots of really positive minded, no drama couples who did it right. I saw early on how to navigate the complexity of this stuff to live out fantasies most people can't live out.

I've considered myself a switch and have enjoyed pegging, so when covid rolled around i ended up becoming a lot more in-tune with my submissive desires and really leaned into exploring cuckolding.

My GF and I for the last few years have on-and-off seen people both together and solo, but I loved when she went out as a hotwife and I had to stay home wondering what kind of night she was having.

Cuckolding has a really bad rap... and it took me awhile to embrace that i "am" a cuckold, just like I "am" a bull who can be incredible in bed. They aren't exclusive and I can switch between those roles

But I will say, I've become 80% interested in trying to explore more cuckolding. Perhaps it's because it's new and interesting.

I've also opened up to bi play in the context of cuckolding play and have had one true bi-cuck encounter with my girlfriend, and it was amazing. The other guy was super respectful, amazing in bed with my GF, and bigger than me (i'm almost 8"). My GF is a total size queen but it's hard to find other bigger guys, so I loved that.

But anyways, I love cuckolding. Being a bull is fun too and I'd love to do that some more, but it takes so much effort to find people that don't flake. It's definitely is easier to find guys for hotwife/cuckolding.

As a bull, I didn't really necessarily get turned on from the emotional side of being a bull. It's fun, don't get me wrong, but I'm not looking to dominate... I'm looking to have a good time.

With cuckolding, the emotional aspect is awesome. I feel like I've had years of training to be comfortable with handling these emotions. Like I'm way too comfortable... I want my GF to go deeper in all sorts of ways with me... lite-sissy play, SPH, chastity, etc. I' I am pretty much open to most things within reason with being the "humiliated" sexual partner who can't please my GF like she wants to be pleased. I love the idea of her having semi-frequent play with others, telling/showing me all about it, preferring other guys in bed to me...making me participate and please them too (only have had one night like this as mentioned)

She's not as interested in the more extreme play, but I find it interesting why am i so open about all this?

I think it may have to do with not being worried about truthfully being bad in bed, being small, or other things like that. I feel like I don't need to hold back and I can keep exploring in a way that both of us get to enjoy this.

Anyways, not sure what the point of my rambling was...

If anyone out there feels like they are hesitant to explore cuckolding because of how they may be perceived, know that it's just kink play in the bedroom... it doesn't mean anything outside the bedroom. Nothing changes about you.